DTP Part 36

Dreams, Wishes, and Heartache
Written on: Unknown date

Dreams, wishes and heartache
Things well known to me
Heart son your sleeves
For people to see
But no one has held it true

Lies, hate and death
More things to hate in my life
Never any truth or peace
Or lives worth living
Just things we despise

But there are always the things we love
Like the one person who lights up your day
Or the friend that tells you what she things
That one person who can make your life worth living
They make you want to be your best so they notice who you are

So just keep on living and trust those you love
Never stop dreaming the dreams you love
And keep wishing on stars
And see those wishes through
Never give up on that one special person
Never give up
And never look away
Face those fears of yesterday

DTP Part 35

Alone
Written on: September 4, 2002 (age fifteen)

She sat all alone
Staring at the stars
She didn't know what to say
Or do to help

The world around her was crumbling
With all the fighting and wars
Never peace with everyone
Always hate

She wonders if she'll ever see peace
She thinks about how to help
But all thoughts are gone
Fear takes its place

Her life turned into a living hell
With shots being fired
And everyone dieing
All around her

Her family and friends
All gone
But her faith is still there
And maybe it'll pull her through

A blinding light flashes
And all thought is gone
She sees the destruction
And fear rules all things

She gets to her knees
And prays to whoever will listen
Scared and shaking
Feeling the light surround her

She feels the emptiness
She's alone now
Not a soul other then her
Walks on this desolate spot

She always remembers
The fears of those days
When she first became alone
Never aging, never dieing

All she does now
Is walk the empty earth
Surrounded by fear and silence
And the bodies of the innocent

She is that which shows emptiness
She is fear
She is death
She is alone

DTP Part 34

Choices
Written on: January 13, 2003 (age sixteen)

She fell upon her knees
Giving up on life
Lost all trust and everything
For she had nothing left

No one to make the cold nights warm
No one to dry her tears
She's been through the pain
She didn't want to feel it again

She decided she wanted it to be over
She couldn't live with it anymore
She needed a way to end the pain
A way to be able to live again

She had a choice to make
Would she end her life or try to go on
Would she face tomorrow with a smile
Or would she watch the dark take over

People said love would come again
You should live again
Open up and enjoy what you have
Live until it's truly time to stop

She didn't know if they were right
She didn't know what to do
She wanted to get through it
But she didn't know how

DTP Part 33

The Girl
Written on: December 20, 2002

She sat by a pool of blue water
Silently wishing for a new life
A better chance in the world
Some way to survive
A family who'll love unconditionally
Just some peace of mind

She sits in a field of flowers
Wondering if this piece of heaven will last
Will life continue here forever
Or will it just disappear
Like every other good thing in life
In a place filled with beauty there's death

She sits on a mountaintop
Looking around her
Breathing in the thick fresh air
The chill shakes the body
Yet warmth soon takes over
When she notices the overwhelming beauty

Alone she sits on the universe's tail
Riding on an unending course
Trailing a path made by destiny
Living and dying
A continuous cycle
Never to end

For she is mother Earth
She is our mother, our life
She gives us food and what we need
And the air we breathe
She is our protector
She is Earth

DTP Part 32

Me and You
Written on: December 20, 2002 (age sixteen)

We started as friends
Instantly a bond was formed
We became close
I almost always knew
What you were thinking
Our friendship got deep
And I grew to love you
With my soul and my heart
You were everything to me
I spent my days trying
To make you smile

We could laugh at old times
Look forward to new times
We said we'd always be close
But deep in my heart
I wanted more than that
Maybe one day we'll be
Everything to each other
And you'll hold me
In your arms
Whispering sweet nothings
Into my ear

Maybe it's not love I'm looking for
But just an unending friendship
I don't want to ever loose you
Cuz then it would hurt too much
My heart would no longer beat
If I couldn't see you
Laugh and smile
Cuz when I see that sparkle
In your eyes
I know that you care
And I'll know you are there

You're not a dream
I keep dreaming
You're not a story
I keep telling
You're just the air
I need to breathe
You're just the man
I need to brighten my day
You keep me smiling
You keep my life going
You give me what I need

I learned how good
Life can be
You brought the sunshine
I gave you some too
I give you all my trust
And you do the same for me
We make great friends
We know that the only good times
Are when we are talking to each other
We see forever
In each others eyes

How strange is it
I could come to care
So completely
I only want the best for you
Whether it's with me or not
I learned to trust again
When I met you
You showed me
What I needed to see
And you told me
What I needed to hear

We've helped each other
Through those long days
We've seen it rain
As much as the sun
We've made a couple
Wrong turns on the road of life
We've made up for the
Circles we've been going in
By talking to each other
You saw what I wanted
Others to notice

I told you everything
Even all the poems I wrote
You gave me the
Confidence I needed
To keep on writing
I gave you words
To show you life doesn't end
With a broken heart
Because out there we all have soul mates

DTP Part 31

Love
Written on: August 12, 2001 (age fourteen)

I thought I heard an angel sing
I think I saw it fly
My heart is flying with yours
And I know exactly why

I know my heart is true
And I am sure yours is too
You are everything to me
And I really want you to know

I love the thought of you
The feelings you bring when you're talking to me
I hope you get that fluttering feeling
When you talk to me too

I really want to show you
how my heart does grow
And I hope your heart is true
So we can do this forever

I love you
You love me
So why don't we
Try forever?

DTP Part 30

How Long
Written on: November 14, 2001 (age fourteen)

How long has it been since life was true
Measuring all the things you do
I once did know the things of old
But now my heart is full of things
That are happening today

Never did my heart flutter
Or was my head full of you
Always a wonder at the things you do
Always wishing to be there with you

So far away
But so close to my heart
You changed my perspective on life
You made me try for the best
And you never let me put myself down

How is it that we are so far apart
But yet we are so close at heart
We both know that the other will be true
And that we'll always love each other

Never once will our love falter
It will always be strong
We'll get through the toughest of things
With not a doubt in our minds

How difficult life may seem
But we'll get through it hand in hand

One day we'll not just be two
But one joined by God
Rings on our fingers and love in our hearts

We'll always be strong
And never look back
Always looking forward
To the things to come

DTP Part 29

Breathless
Written on: July 24, 2001 (age fourteen)

Have you ever wondered why life is so difficult?
Have you ever considered it to be difficult because it's teaching you?
If you really think about it, is life really that difficult?
Maybe it's easy and it only looks hard because we are still making choices in our life

Have you ever been jealous of people around you?
Have you ever been jealous of your friends because they had something like love and you didn't?
Have you ever been jealous of the people you think 'have it easy'?
Maybe it's because we don't have what we want, or maybe its because we want life to be easy.

Has love ever left you breathless?
Or made your heart skip a beat?
Have you ever only thought of one person?
Maybe because you have found the person to spend the rest of your life with

Have you ever felt like you were in heaven?
Was it because of a person?
Or was it something your heart made you feel?
Maybe there truly is someone to love in this world

Are you willing to sacrifice everything?
Are you ready to take over your life?
Are you ready for what your future holds?
Are you ready?
Are you ready to start a new life?
I am.

DTP Part 28

Sometimes
Written on: January 7, 2003 (age sixteen)

Once in awhile
Our lives are filled with sorrow
But sometimes our days are bright
With happiness
When times pass by
Our lives grow wiser
We learn to look for signs
That will point us down the right path

Sometimes I sit in the shadows
Looking in at the world
Watching life pass by
You'd think I'd be sad
But in truth I'm quite happy
With the time to observe
To watch how people react
To what happens in their lives

So scared time will pass me by
And I'll miss the important things
But it shouldn't be difficult
To live life this way
Maybe I'll regret it
But I'll have to live with my choices

DTP Part 27

The Fall
Written on: Unknown date

That fall is very far
But it's never scary
Unless you're scared of whom you're falling for
Then it can be a pain

You might get hurt
But you'll never die
You may end up better then before
And trust more people

This fall could be wonderful
Granting your deepest wishes
Never have to dream again
Because all of that has become real

Always falling deeper
Into each others love
You'll never fall apart
Only closer together

Carefully planning where to go
Make sure you don't go the wrong way
Or you may loose track
So watch forward to the days of love

DTP Part 26

Everything
Written on: January 3, 2001 (age fourteen)

Care of everything
Never worrying about a thing
Sure of nothing
Not knowing where to go

Hope for something
Knowing it may come
Wishing for something
Unsure of what's to come

Love for someone
Knowing it is always true
Trust of no one
Though I wish I could

Close to everyone
Never going far away
Pray for everyone
So they live through this wondrous day

Never did I know so much
Of all the people in my life
Carefully I plan the day
For which I do see coming

DTP Part 25

The Boy
Written on: January 3, 2001 (age fourteen)

He sits in a dark room
Alone and very scared
Not sure what to do
Or who to trust

Scared he may never
See the light of day
Holding on to life
Though not sure if he really wants to

Carefully he chooses his friends
Not letting them get to close
Never learning to love
Those who all care for him

Hoping maybe one day
His dad won't raise his hand
Or his mom won't say
The things she says to hurt him so bad

Did he know there is help
For the things he's going through
Someone who'll care
Right next to him

Maybe next time
Will be his last time
Getting away from all of this
To feel safe again

So he sits in the dark corner
Hoping not to be seen
he cries and prays to God
To make his life go swifter

Maybe God will have them take his life
So he will be with Him
Then he won't have to hear the yelling
Or feel the pain again

Or maybe he can run away
But that is against everything he was taught
'Honor and the obey thy mother and thy father'
Is what is going through his head

How will he survive
Alone into this world
What if this happens to his kids
Will he still care

Could lie be that terrible
To trouble him with these thoughts
Why would God put him through this
It hurts him to the soul

Why does it hurt so bad?
Why can't it go away?
Scared it may go too far
And pus him to his final day

Can God just make it all stop?
And bring him to his bliss
Can't life just be over?
So he can finally be happy

Never will he hurt again
Not when he's in God's eyes
He'll be happy when he's gone
No more pain or yelling

God please help this boy
Guide him through the night
Teach him to be strong again
And guide him to your light

We know he'll be with you soon
So wait for him with care
Help him through this time
He'll need your care and blessing

Can you help him
Make him see your ways
Guide him and teach him
And make sure that he is safe

Soon the boy heard the yelling
He knew in his heart
It would be the last time
He'd soon be far away

He knew his father would hit him hard
And knock him to the floor
He wouldn't fight back this time
He won't let him see the pain

His dad walked in and smacked him
He fell to the floor
He got scared when the light got brighter
He knew he was going home

He felt the pain keep coming
he knew it would never end
But tonight would be the last time
The pain would be no more

DTP Part 24

I Love
Written on: January 4, 2001 (age fourteen)

Carefully I pray
Carefully I trust
Carelessly I walk away
And carelessly I love

Hopefully I write
Hopefully I care
Trustlessly I run to you
Trustlessly I love

Faithfully I cry
Faithfully I see
Hopelessly I talk to you
Hopelessly I love

Sadness overwhelms me
Sadness never cares
Happiness never near
Happily I love

Never will I go away
Never will I run
Always will I stay with you
Always will I love

DTP Part 23

Life
Written on: January 4, 2001 (age fourteen)

There always is another day
Brighter then the one before
Tomorrow comes another time
And different is it once again
Always we plan ahead
Not knowing what's to come
Never do we just look forward
Always peeking behind
Careful not to get lost
On this path of life

Careful of the future
Not sure of the past
Eerie about the present
Scared of not knowing
Happy when you guess
Sadly you awaken
Life unknown to you
Never can life do what's expected
Always doing the unexpected
Sleeping everything away

Slowly we walk on
Never again unsure
Trying harder every day
But couldn't we just go on
And face all fears unafraid
Never scared or tired
Walking forward
Not wanting and sure
Careful not to fall away
Stay close to your path

DTP Part 22

Unwanted and Unsure
Written on: January 4, 2001

Unwanted
Is the fear inside
Unsure
Of what to do

Unwanted
Is the darkness bright
Unsure
Of where to go

Unwanted
Is the carelessness
Unsure
Of how to live

Unwanted
Is what creeps around
Unsure
Of what it is

Unwanted
Is the hatred
Unsure
Of who to love

Unwanted
Is the untruthfullness
Unsure
Of everything

Unwanted
Is the death that creeps
Unsure
Of life's true plan

Unwanted
Is that scary feeling
Unsure
Of what it means

Unwanted
Is the heartbreak
Unsure
Of what to do

DTP Part 21

The Bird
Written on: January 4, 2001 (age fourteen)

Swiftly they fly away
Around the world they go
Careful to not get too close
To those they leave behind

Trusting the few he takes with him
Leading them far away
Soon they'll be warm again
But now is just the cold air

Faithfully he pushes forward
Soon the day will come
When a spot will be safe
And the food plenty

DTP Part 20

I know exactly what brought this poem out. We had been to a assembly at school that talked about prejudices and racism. I have always disliked prejudices and racism (not that anyone really likes them, except maybe fanatics) and this is what was brought out of me.

Hatred
Written on: January 4, 2001 (age fourteen)

Hatred towards a certain person
Scared of what they'll do
Carefully they watch each other
Not sure of who to trust

Watching after men and women
Not the same as you
Telling them to go away
Just because they are different

Differences will be here always
No one is the same
Hatred still comes to the different people
Just because someone like them did something bad

We hate those people because we want to
Not really knowing the reason why
Maybe someone did something
But we don't know who or why

Truth is hard to live with
Because everyone does this at least once
Some people do it all the time
And they're not even aware

Can this world live without hatred?
Or does life need a little hate
I don't know the answers
But hopefully we would live without it

Hatred is easy to misunderstand
But never will it change
We really can't get rid of it
Because someone will always hate someone else

So think about it
How many things you have said in hatred
Did you really mean to do it?
Did you even think?

All the hatred will overwhelm you
Push you far away
Never to know love again
And unsure of where to go

DTP Part 19

Dreamer of Dreams
Written on: January 7, 2001 (age fourteen)

Dream of dreams
And wisher of wishes
He stares with stars in his eyes
He doesn't know when life will end
But he will live life to the fullest
Because he'll always be
The dreamer of dreams
And the wisher of wishes

For he's the dreamer of dreams
And the wisher of wishes
He walks with pride in his step
He doesn't know where he's going
But he walks with his head held high
Because he'll always be
The dreamer of dreams
And the wisher of wishes

Can the dreamer of dreams
And the wisher of wishes
Live happily forever
Or will it soon be over
But his love will last forever
Because he'll always be
The dreamer of dreams
And the wisher of wishes

I like this poem. Its not the greatest of my poems but its short and sweet and to the point.

DTP Part 18

Mankind
Written on: January 5, 2001 (age fourteen)

Faith is in our hearts
Towards all of mankind
Hoping there will come a day
Though it may still be far away
Peace will shine through all the hate

Peace may be far away
But we'll always have the love
Of each special person
Believing everything you say
Will be the truth

Trust is always hard to find
Not knowing when to give it out
Joy of the care it brings

This was a poem in response to a reading we had done in my global studies class in high school. I believe it was all about different conflicts happening in various places. What hits me is that this was written before that faithful day on September 11th.

DTP Part 17

Life
Written on: January 2001 (age fourteen)

Life will go on living
A home will still be home
A family will still be family
So love will still live on

Dreams will still be dreamed
And hope we all can have
The skies are always blue
The seas are always deep

Can't I just be happy?
Walking down the street
Can't I hold my head up high?
And be safe all the same

Can't we all trust?
The feelings in our hearts
Or is it impossible
To learn where to start.

Again with the angsty teenager. Hope y'all enjoyed it.